I waited until 4pm

I need to internalize a little today. I'm trying not to feel "inis" 'coz my patience is probably being tested. But the feelings are too bad...I've tried to get rid of them but it still there no matter what.

Waiting really produces bad emotions, if we don't ask God to give us the strength to let go of the negative thoughts and let Him take over our emotions. If I just entertain the negative thoughts, I'd end up feeling bad, being impatient, and wrestling with His will.

Anyway, although i waited until 4 pm and nothing happens, my paranoidal, pathetic feelings almost eat me up from getting frustrated to brewing into bitter feelings.

Haay...all in a days work!