Siouxsie & Me

Christmas with my cousin Siouxsie. On the 1st day of the year 2005, Siouxsie gave me another gift that made my world upside down. Should that be the right term? Well, I know her concern and I believe its for my own good. So I shouldn't feel desolated during the Christmas holiday. But that doesn't change the fact that she or they (because it involves my barkadas), hid the truth from me. Well, whatever that truth is...I don't want to mention it here anymore. Anyway, this past few nights was like a torture on me because I supressed all the mix emotions I have. I want to get mad and just get mad...but I couldn't. I can easily get mad if the driver of the jeepney or fx doesn't give me back my 50cents change. I could get mad if my friend made me wait for a meeting for 2 hours. I could get mad if was served with a cold carbonara after long minutes of waiting. I could actually easily get mad...but i don't understand my feelings right now why I can't release it. Maybe I know the answer but my mind refuse to listen and do the action. Maybe I know the action but I don't have the power to do it. Maybe there's another way...


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